I am sitting here on my bed-staring out the windows-staring at the walls. Nothing inside my head. Infinite possibilities inside my head. Too many things to think on and not enough time to devote to even one.
There have been times that I have hated my life. Things were so difficult, so I thought, that almost anything else would be more promising than “my life”! I know now that that was not true. Though times can be tough at times and I can feel that I just want to change everything…after the dust settles and I am in my room…looking out the windows…looking at these walls…my life is my own. That means I make it what I want it to be. So…if I want to be miserable…I make it miserable!!!!! If I want to be happy…I make it happy! Life, in general, is difficult. It is meant to be so. If it were simple, there would be no wars or starvation or homelessness. Life is what we make of it. All of the difficult things we are going through just make us appreciate and respect those in our lives and the world that we live in. We, as humans, are so very complex. We like to think we are simple, but no…give us the basics and we want more. Give us the best there is to offer and we want more. It all depends on where we are on the path of wisdom and knowledge…of ourselves and of others. I know that I can be manipulative. I don’t necessarily like that aspect of myself, but I acknowledge it and own it and that allows me a certain power over it. I know who I am and what I am capable of. I know what I can take and where I plan to go. Whether or not I get there…that is up to me. Where will you go?